Kathy appreciated that he wasn't running, but the fast forwarding made sense. Hell, sometimes she did, too.
She missed those few months there where she'd finally stopped being intimidated by Ez and they had been able to hang out and laugh together in between the everything else. She also missed the 'everything else' but the lack of tension between them had been--comforting.
"You know," she murmured, "this kinda sucks." She laughed, but there was no humor in it. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm not--faster at this, I guess. I'm sorry I came back so much slower and warier and scareder, I guess." She was perfectly aware that wasn't a word, but if he could use fabulosity, she could use scareder. "I'm sorry this situation is so untenable, but that I can't pull you in or push you away."
Her hand drifted up to his mouth, pressed a finger against his lips in a 'shh' gesture. "Don't apologize. You have. And don't tell me it's all okay or that you understand. I know you do, that's not the point."
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She missed those few months there where she'd finally stopped being intimidated by Ez and they had been able to hang out and laugh together in between the everything else. She also missed the 'everything else' but the lack of tension between them had been--comforting.
"You know," she murmured, "this kinda sucks." She laughed, but there was no humor in it. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm not--faster at this, I guess. I'm sorry I came back so much slower and warier and scareder, I guess." She was perfectly aware that wasn't a word, but if he could use fabulosity, she could use scareder. "I'm sorry this situation is so untenable, but that I can't pull you in or push you away."
Her hand drifted up to his mouth, pressed a finger against his lips in a 'shh' gesture. "Don't apologize. You have. And don't tell me it's all okay or that you understand. I know you do, that's not the point."